Today I walked to The Hoe where I found the Camper Obscura parked on the Promenade. Led by Emma into its small space, I witnessed an amazing tour, 360 degrees of delight. A "Wow" moment. And next .... another 360 degree journey.
I hadn't climbed to the top of Smeaton Tower for many years, but today I felt drawn to it.
I wish I'd brought my film camera with me, my digital is not performing well, probably because I dropped the lens! Time to buy a new camera.
I was pretty scared at the top of the tower. I'm not good with heights, and this plateau had other scary aspects .... namely the intimidating wind trying to push me off the top. Well, that's how it felt to me, up there. I held on tight as I tried to frame my shots. 
Next time I'll have to be braver, take more time, get some good shots. Next time I want to get the shots that I'll enter into the competitions to photograph the landscape in its many forms. Our course leader, Dave Kinney, informed us about these competitions last week. Its important to enter competitions for many reasons. Winning a local competition is an opportunity to showcase work in the city. Winning a national competition is a great opportunity to be "seen" by those who have influence. Even entering and not winning could be an introduction to someone important in the photographic world. Who knows.
But my problem with competitions is that I lack the belief that my work is good enough. I am having a confidence crisis again. Some of the photographic work by other students in my year group, really show some amazing skills. I am not sure that I have enough talent to make it. I sometimes wonder.
Today was about looking at the whole picture. Seeing life and all its intricacies from every angle. I need to think about this.
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